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the blinking cursor on the page is threatening me, and i find that although i have everything in the world to say, i'm not sure if my thoughts can make it all the way to my fingertips tonight. all i know is that the questions swimming around in their heads are contagious and now i can't stop thinking about all of this. i feel utterly rejected yet again today. they poke and prod with their playful words and their playful nature and i'm so easily provoked to tears. i'm sure they don't want that. but it's days like these where i feel like i'm crazy and nobody gets me and that i'll be alone forever. i know, it sounds crazy, but it's so true for me as a college student. as i grow and change, will you stay? i was hoping they'd lease on a house and they didn't. and all my plans are falling through. i don't really know quite what i'm trying to say, all i know is that the tears that have been camping on the brink of my eyelids are going to come raining down any minute.