fall is coming, they're saying
but i'm not ready for a change
i'm not even ready for the morning to come
i just got used to this day
only to find it's once again over
in this state of change i find
that my yesterdays spill over into
the todays that i've so carefully composed
and while i'm nothing like i used to be
i'm exactly who i was before
i'm still breathing i'm still human
you still cut me i still bleed
i still long to know i'm lovely
and i still laugh and cry and speak
summer was a time to mourn
quite an irony if you look to the skies
but now here's fall and with the season
comes a bit of fading away
the fading away of the bitter insecurity
the death of my fear and my doubt
but it's comfortable to be in this state of mind
so i keep inviting in the same voices
the same feelings the same pain
there's going to be a time
when the change is gonna come
and i'm gonna welcome it with open arms
no shame or guilt drowning me
fall is coming, they're saying.
adventure please?
i'm feeling like i could use a change of pace.
do you ever feel like you want to drive around the world?
but instead, i'm running in circles.
college is great, but wow is it redundant.
do you ever feel like you want to drive around the world?
but instead, i'm running in circles.
college is great, but wow is it redundant.
"for your Maker is your Husband, the Almighty is His name."
while i'm supposed to be reading, my wandering mind is drawn back to the topic of LOVE as christians. isn't it amusing that we've set such a double standard of it out of our ignorance? i choose to believe that we didn't know we were setting said standard, just for the fact that i'm trying to be more positive of the body of Christ. so i'm proposing this: if love for your spouse is a committment, isn't our love for God the same? and if that's the case, is "backsliding" an option? we say we "love" God, but as Christians, across the board, you wouldn't be able to find our committment to Him with a magnifying glass. and if that's the case, then what am i committing to when i say i'm in love with Him?
love is patient and kind, it doesn't envy or boast. it isn't proud or rude or self seeking. it's not angered easily, and it doesn't keep score. love doesn't rejoice when others fall, but rejoices in the truth. it always protects, always trusts, hopes, and perseveres.
am i patient in waiting on the Lord? do i always trust that even though it takes forever to get to where He takes me, that it's gonna work out?
the word "kind" in the Greek is "to treat as one's own kin, one's own family". doesn't that change the whole entire meaning of the word? "He came to that which was His own, but His own did not recieve Him. but to those who recieved Him, to those who believe in His name, He gave the right to become children of God" (john 1:11). and so it makes sense to treat God like our Daddy, with the respect and love and just complete awe He deserves.
love does not envy. it was hard for me to think of how this fit into the context of our relationship with God. and then i remembered about how Lucifer was taken from Heaven because he thought he could be greater than God. he envied God's power and gift. and do i struggle with the same?
it seems silly to think that i could boast to God, but so many times, i boast in my own gift instead of in Him. it's the difference between boasting in ourselves and boasting in God.
love isn't proud. that means i'm not unwilling to admit our faults to a God who is bigger than they are.
love isn't rude. i need to honor God even in the moments when i feel like dishonoring Him.
love isn't self seeking. i don't serve God because of what i get out of it, i serve God because He is God. and if my motives are ever for any other reason, i've failed in my committment to Him.
love isn't easily angered. i don't always understand what God is doing in my life, and for me to be angry at Him is senseless. He sees the big picture. He knows what is best, and i'm going to have to learn to trust Him with all that i am.
love keeps no record of wrongs. have you ever met someone who just keeps pounding out a list of things that "God" supposedly did to them? of course, those of us in the church never do that. we would never say anything like "God, where were you on 9-11? God, why did you let them die?", right? i can't think about the things that don't make sense about God, i just have to trust that He'll work them for His good.
love does not delight in evil. i should never be looking for harsh justice upon others from God. jonah prayed that God would smite nineveh, but God's will is that none should perish, and shouldn't my desires be the same?
love rejoices in the truth. so many people have fallen away from God because they "exchanged the truth of God for a lie" (romans 1). i don't ever want to be one of those people. i want to love truth more than i love acceptance or sin.
love always protects, trusts, hopes, perseveres.
may i never take my commitment lightly, for my Maker is my Husband. He is the one i love. and in that, i will commit myself to Him forever and ever.
love is patient and kind, it doesn't envy or boast. it isn't proud or rude or self seeking. it's not angered easily, and it doesn't keep score. love doesn't rejoice when others fall, but rejoices in the truth. it always protects, always trusts, hopes, and perseveres.
am i patient in waiting on the Lord? do i always trust that even though it takes forever to get to where He takes me, that it's gonna work out?
the word "kind" in the Greek is "to treat as one's own kin, one's own family". doesn't that change the whole entire meaning of the word? "He came to that which was His own, but His own did not recieve Him. but to those who recieved Him, to those who believe in His name, He gave the right to become children of God" (john 1:11). and so it makes sense to treat God like our Daddy, with the respect and love and just complete awe He deserves.
love does not envy. it was hard for me to think of how this fit into the context of our relationship with God. and then i remembered about how Lucifer was taken from Heaven because he thought he could be greater than God. he envied God's power and gift. and do i struggle with the same?
it seems silly to think that i could boast to God, but so many times, i boast in my own gift instead of in Him. it's the difference between boasting in ourselves and boasting in God.
love isn't proud. that means i'm not unwilling to admit our faults to a God who is bigger than they are.
love isn't rude. i need to honor God even in the moments when i feel like dishonoring Him.
love isn't self seeking. i don't serve God because of what i get out of it, i serve God because He is God. and if my motives are ever for any other reason, i've failed in my committment to Him.
love isn't easily angered. i don't always understand what God is doing in my life, and for me to be angry at Him is senseless. He sees the big picture. He knows what is best, and i'm going to have to learn to trust Him with all that i am.
love keeps no record of wrongs. have you ever met someone who just keeps pounding out a list of things that "God" supposedly did to them? of course, those of us in the church never do that. we would never say anything like "God, where were you on 9-11? God, why did you let them die?", right? i can't think about the things that don't make sense about God, i just have to trust that He'll work them for His good.
love does not delight in evil. i should never be looking for harsh justice upon others from God. jonah prayed that God would smite nineveh, but God's will is that none should perish, and shouldn't my desires be the same?
love rejoices in the truth. so many people have fallen away from God because they "exchanged the truth of God for a lie" (romans 1). i don't ever want to be one of those people. i want to love truth more than i love acceptance or sin.
love always protects, trusts, hopes, perseveres.
may i never take my commitment lightly, for my Maker is my Husband. He is the one i love. and in that, i will commit myself to Him forever and ever.
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