seven days' truth

but my darling, when did your arms grow so cold?
why didn't you tell me that love wasn't to be found?
what did you find in me that compelled you to run?
who are you anymore? i don't know who this man is who stands before me.

i get lost in the music, you get lost in the crowd
and i know you must wonder if i miss you even in the slightest.
i've been really good at putting on a smile,
but then again, you've always been able to see right through it.
you probably know how much it hurts me to be without you.

my heart is beating, but i'm all disconnected
my lungs are pumping and you still take my breath away
i can still feel you teasing my hair between your fingers, if even for a second
my body is moving, but my soul is limping and my heart is breaking
your presence lingers and trails me everywhere i go
i answer their questions blankly, feeling nothing yet knowing
the emptiness i feel is just me realizing the spot you occupied

nobody understands how much it hurts
how badly i want you back, and the worst part?
knowing that i can't change your mind.
i just have to live with the fact that you are gone
and we might never be ever again.

i hope you never see this
because i never want you to know how much i loved you.