storytime

where are the bible stories for people like me?
i don't find one moment in the bible that includes "open mouth, insert foot" or "she ruined her love life with her sarcastic tongue and strong personality". i can't even seem to find "she was ever changing and it scared her friends away". maybe i'm crazy for thinking bible characters would have struggles like me, struggles to be accepted, struggles to be enough, struggles to contain their overflowing joy and laughter. i'm sure ruth and job and peter had plenty more worries than i. but i can't help but wonder what my story would look like if i was in the bible.

there was a girl, a very broken girl, near the village where jesus was staying. she was a beautiful girl with lots to offer: a beautiful voice, a giving and sacrificial heart, maturity...but she was also known for her loud mouth and clumsiness, her crazy stories, and her ability to run people away. one day, she'd finally had enough and she went to find jesus to ask him why God would make her such a reject. during the time she was travelling to the nearby village, she pondered in her heart why people couldn't love the complicated woman she was becoming. for she was only a child, and still learning. the more she thought, the more embittered she became, and when she entered the citadel, she was ready to tell him about it. but when she saw his face...the face of acceptance, sufficiency, unashamed joy and laughter...it all changed.

i wish someone in the bible felt like that so i could relate to them right now.