proverbs one:seven

"the fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge, but fools despise wisdom and instruction."

proverbs talks a lot about wisdom. wisdom itself is the one thing that solomon asked for when granted the opportunity. and in his writings in proverbs, he seems to beg us to seek the same thing - which has always confused me a little, considering the man had thousands of women at his disposal. doesn't sound too wise.

but i think in chapter one, verse seven, we see a little insight into the years that have brought him to this place. he isn't saying this because he was successful, but he sees where he has lacked and he makes a decision to warn the next generation that you can have wisdom, but without the fear of the Lord, it will do you no good.

i'm 20 years old. i like indie rock music, peace signs, the color purple, old literature, floral patterns, tattoos, and coffee. lots and lots of coffee. in this past year, i have watched myself flee girl-hood and become a woman. and in this next year, my goal is to solidify. i know i'll never have this life figured out, but i would love to figure out that He's the only way i'll make it. and the beginning of that is the fear of the Lord. not to be afraid of him, and not even to fear his judgments, but to have such a reverence and respect for Him that i realize that nothing makes sense unless He is in the midst of it. and that will produce wisdom that can only come from above.

so i guess, this is my resolve. call it a new year's resolution if you will.
i just want this year to be the year that i fear the Lord first and make myself look good later.
God, that i might fear Your name.